It is just after one am and I am exhausted but unable to sleep. Having alot on my mind and experiencing chronic pain are not a good combination at this time of night!
I haven’t shared with most of you that I have chronic back and neck pain as well as generalized pain which is being diagnosed as possibly being fibromyalgia. I had an MRI last week and it showed a couple of tears in discs but I am not debilitated by it very often so I don’t like to talk about it. Well, truth be told, sometimes I just want to cry from the pain but don’t give into it. I will probably be trying accupuncture for the lower back pain and, if that doesn’t work, something called Prolotherapy which I will not get into because it is not very pleasant.
Not knowing the source of pain is a practice in faith. God knows what is causing it. If He will be glorified by my being healed then I will be healed. When I was at an evening of prayer with my women’s group last Friday night, they saw that I was in pain. All I wanted was the babystep of being able to make it through that meeting. They layed hands on me and prayed for my healing. Almost immediately, the shooting pain in my hand and the swelling that was there subsided and my back felt great. This lasted the entire evening and two of the women who had had headaches all day were healed of their pain, too! The following day the pain was back but not as severely. I need to have my prayer group pray for a bigger step next time! Complete healing would be nice!
When we are called to Him, we are not promised a life without pain. What we are promised is perfect love from our Creator and this love gives us the grace to deal with whatever comes our way if we ask for it. Remember that grace is God’s Riches at Christ’s Expense. He gives it to us as we need it.
People often misquote scripture and say that God will never give us more than we can bear. He will give us more than we can bear so that we will lean on Him! Only with Him can we go through life with hope and the ease of knowing that we are never alone! Praise be to His holy name!
Maranatha, dear friends. Maranatha. gail